is it about me?

i'm sad if its me u're talking about.
from what i've said here,i'm not blaming you.i'm talking about what i've done to you and to all people who i know.and it shows here that i'm the wrong one, not you.
i dont say that i'm right coz i can accept people's advice or u're wrong
bcoz of all these.its me who caused all these and i never blame you for what had happened.
you have to understand that i dont blame you for all these.

i'm not saying that u haven't reach the asam garam kehidupan yet. that one is for me, not you. if u really think that what i've said here is to blame you, u are wrong. i'm here with my words are to make u understand that i'm not asking for happy ending, i just ask for a good relationship (friendship) for u and me if its the last thing that we can go for. i believe both of us dont know what's in our mind to each other now. this is why i'm asking you to face me and talk about all these. yes i admit that i'm not clear what's happening now and as u said, i have to ask "the spotlight" from you.

i'm ready to fight for future if all these are going right. but what i can see now all went wrong already and i'm the one who caused these. so give me another chance to change the wrong to the right so both of us can fight for the future again.

i dont ask much,i just want u to know that these all went wrong already and i know u're mad right now.but please, we have to meet and talk about these so all will go as good later.just give me a call when u're ready for that.

*p/s
i'm sorry if it was not me who u're talking about in ur last post. but we still have to settle this problem so we dont have to face the misery again and again. please....