Happy holiday ~~~

hye there.

haih~~~
i'm going back to my hometown today(24th of may) at 5.30pm. and maybe i couldn't online 24/7 bcoz i have no internet connection at my hometown. if u guys "rindu" me (perasannyer aku :P ), just send me a msg to my friendster account or leave a comment here. hmm what i'll do when it comes to the holiday?previously i just sat at home and "layan" television with my grandmother. and went out met my friends for "roti canai time" only. so this time i've planned to do a reunion for my ex-schoolmates. and i hope it will be fine as what it has been planned.

so how about u guys? nothing to do when it comes to holiday?
why not if u guys call me and we go for a meal if u're staying near to KL area la. if not then sorry. :D

so enjoy the holiday and pleaseeeee when u go, make sure u come back in one piece ok?
thats the important thing.

enjoy the holiday.

azhan (for the 1st time i'll say i miss you)

Ice Box - Omarion

Ice Box - Omarion

hmm this is the song i was playing on Taktau.fm last two months before i got started back the program today. that time i was like "hm best gak lagu ni" <-- means i like the melody and couldnt understand what the song all about. this is me, melody comes first. hehehe...
and this past few days i started to listen this song back and i also placed the video clip on my friendster. so to you people who think i love Omarion, u're wrong !!!!
i just like the melody/rhythm of this song and i never get started to understand the lyric yet. kekkeke....

so it is my pleasure to present you,

OMARION - ICE BOX

Fussin' and fightin', we back at it again
I know that, its my fault, but you don't understand (no)
I got memories, this is crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my niggas
I should try to decide, wanna let u in, but no
That means memories, and its crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know

[Bridge]
Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
Its no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

Why cant I get it right, just cant let it go
I opened up, she let me down, I wont feel that no more
I got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I cant help it
Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

[Bridge]
Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
Its no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold cold world
Don't wanna mess this up better keep your eye on me girl [3x]

[Bridge]
Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
Its no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

2 papers more. haih~~~

exam2~~~

do anyone knows where got place that they don't give exams for the education?
haih~~~

but if there are no exams then how we'll know we are good enough to beat someone else right? :D
this is what people called "life". anything has to be good and perfect but sometimes we just ruin it.
so i went for 3 papers already and waiting for the 4th one on this monday and the last will be on tuesday. but i still in front of my pc and 'lepak-ing' watching movies and series. haih~~~
apa nak jadi la aku ni.

yesterday in the morning i went for PTPTN briefing. what a waste, i had to buy 4 stamps cost RM40. hayya... my mom just gave me RM50 and i spent RM40 already of it just for the PTPTN. dont ask me why, becoz i'm not going to tell what happened. and after that at 3pm i went to exam hall for my Basic Economic....'s paper. u have to answer 80 questions within 2 hours only. mati worr...and really i couldnt answer well yesterday. just hope i'll pass this sem without any supplementary papers. Insya'allah~~~

so, for another 2 papers coming up i hope i can just answer both of them well and pleaseeee wish me luck.

azhan(Gd luck to all friends)

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day ~~~
13th may 2007

haih~~~
a lot of things my mom did and i know its all for me. thanks mom. i dont know how i may return all those that u have done for me. just one sentence i hope it may gives u the happiness when u read it.

"ma, han mintak maaf dan han harap han boleh membahagiakan mama suatu hari nanti."

MAMA I LOVE YOU ~~~

i hope one day i may turn all her sacrifices to happiness by giving her my love and please God help me to keep it until the end of her life.

mama ni lagu han cipta khas untuk mama. harap2 mama suka la.
(skang ni lirik jer la.lagu die takleh nak masuk kat sini lagi. nanti han mainkan untuk mama.)

FOR YOU
I'LL BE THE BABY, I'LL BE THE MAN.
THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE FROM START UNTIL THE END.
I CANT BELIEVE THAT I COULDN'T SAY.
YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT I CARE.

ITS YOU, WHO I LOVE.
YOU ALWAYS THERE EVEN TIMES GOT ROUGH.
CAUSE ITS YOU, WHO I CARE.
I HOPE YOU'LL BE MY SIDE AND YOU'LL STAY.

chorus
I LOVE YOU.
I PROMISE I'LL BE THE MAN YOU WANT ME TO.
I LOVE YOU.
I'LL TRY MY BEST TO GIVE EVERYTHING.
FOR YOU ~~~


lots of love - azhan

Yehh dah dapat ~~~

yuhuu akhirnya.
dapat gak aku chord lagu "its not over" by chris daughtry.

mlm selasa hari tu (sikalang balu mau celita ka?haih~~~) aku lepak2 ngan fay(member kenal dr Colfest) kat kedai "kuning". die la bgtau aku kedai tu nama "kuning". dah agak lama aku kat mlk ni baru skang aku perasaan kedai tu sememangnya "kuning". ahhaks ~~~

ok cerita nye bermula begini.
aku pinjam guitar si fay ni.pastu mlm selasa lepas la baru la leh bg die blk setelah satu minggu kat umah aku. takut gak aku nak simpan lama2 kan? so ade chance terus bg blk la.
sampai jer kat kedai kuning tu, ade lah member2 die yg aku kenal2 gak mase kat Colfest dulu. then bersembang la. tp apekan daya dah kalau depan mata guitar + org yg pandai main guitar pun ramai kecuali aku. bukak lagu la mlm tu. pastu kalau tak salah aku member sorg ni nama megat kot klau aku tak silap. dia la ajar aku chord lagu its not over. thanks weih. aku mmg dah gila lama dah lagu tu cume aku malas nak cari chord die + takde org nak ajar.so mlm tu die bukak lagu tu, aku pun melalak la (tp tak la melalak sampai suma kat kedai tu tgk.just skit2 jer :D )

*betapa kuno nye aku bila aku dpt tau yg daughtry ni dulu rupanya one of the contestants kat american idol. dah dekat 70% aku menghapal lagu die baru aku tau. haih~~~. aku mmg tau die ni dr AI dulu tp aku tak perasan rupenya die yg nyanyi "its not over" ni. sengal gila aku.

hbs mkn je kat kedai kuning tu, diorg ajak lepak kat tgh padang depan EP tp bermeja dan kerusi la. so mlm tu start cerita hantu, pastu sambung ttg kes2 yg tak betul kat EP ngan BBU. ade gak cerita ttg lagu2. aku lupa mamat sorg ni nama die ape ntah, die tanye aku "kau layan dangdut tak?". aku terus bukak mulut nyanyi lagu amelina. kekekek agak nak tergelak gak la aku nyanyi dangdut. haahhah.
then ape lg dah tanah lapang kat situ suma pakat nyanyi sama la kalau ade lagu yg sama2 tau. tp yg memekak aku la. sbb aku ni feeling tak kene tempat skit. ade chance je mesti melalak la. hahahah. mintak maaf la kat sesapa yg rase macam ade terdengar jeritan tgh mlm pada mlm selasa tu.bukan jeritan hantu tau, tu jeritan aku yg tak kena tempat. sorry people. :P

malam tu ade la dlm 4 -5 org lepak skali. tp ape2 pun thanks to the man who taught me the chord for chris daughtry's song. thanks man. aku mmg tggu time org nak ajar jer.

akhir kate, sampai skang aku bagai nak rak melalak kat umah dan dimana2 saje lagu its not over itu. sampai kan housemates aku sume jerit "weih dah la,memekak jer tiap2 hari".

hahahhaha sorry guys, tp kalau aku dah feel gila mintak maaf la "bo layan" la lu olang.
kekekeke sekian.


azhan (akhirnya "its not over")

No one's perfect (curik org nyer) :D

No one is perfect.

aku terbaca satu post kat satu blog org ni yg aku anggap sebagai kawan aku. die nye nama aku hanya leh panggil "N" jer.takleh nak panggil nama betul.takut die saman aku lak. peringatan awal utk korg, aku post kan benda ni bukan nak sound sesape atau nak menunjukkan N ni bgs sgt ke ape. just aku nak kongsi ape yg aku rase betul gak dr post dia ni. dan mintak maaf siap2 kat N kalau sy mempergunakan nama anda. kalau anda tidak rasa selesa dgn post ni, bgtau sy ok? sy akan delete post ni nanti.

jadi kenapa aku post benda ni lak skang?
sbb nye ape yg die ckp tuh betul la.aku takleh nak paste-kan semua post die kat sini.nanti panjang lak jd nyer.so ape yg membuat aku post ni sbb die kate "semua orang tak perfect.aku sendiri pun tak perfect", mmg betul tuh. kita tak pernah hilang perasaan dr diri kita utk jd yg terbaik diantara yg lain. dan kengkadang aku pun terlebih gak ape yg sepatutnya. "sebab biasenye silap ni dtg dari kedua2 pihak..kekadang kita sendiri tak perasan silap tu ade jugak pada diri kita", ni yg selalu aku buat kat org lain kalau aku marah. maksudnye aku bila dah marah kat org lain, aku lupa yg aku pun pernah buat lagi teruk dr org tu buat kat aku. so aku mintak maaf la kat sesapa yg aku pernah buat salah dulu dan aku percaya dr dulu sampai ke skang aku tak pernah henti buat silap kat org gak.
(Miss C klau bace ni mesti nanti die sound aku lg.kekekek )
*Miss C ni lect aku dulu mase kat diploma.korg leh bace post "Miss thanks~~~" nanti.korg akan paham asal die "sound" aku. :D

"dah minta maaf..dah laa..mungkin tak leh nak lupa..tapi..dah2 laa...accept it.."
"accept je laa..sebab aku percaya ..bila orang minta maaf ni dia ikhlas..kalo tak..takde nye nak minta maaf..so..better bebaik..dah2 laa..ungkit mengungkit ni tak baik..diam2 sudey..and accept the positive side..", heheheh aku pun sbenarnye kalau marah sgt kat org, aku selalu gak mengungkit atau pun buat macam rase aku jer betul. kekekeke jahat gak aku ni.baru aku tersedar bila bace post N ni. thanks N, skang br sy lebih sedar yg sy ni lg teruk dr org lain. :D
mmg betul gak kate N yg kita takleh nak ungkit2 hal yg lepas2. just accept what ever it is and learn from the situation. and the most important thing is to accept the positive side.

"tapi kita manusia biase ni... kita akui kita baik..tapi dalam baik kita tu..akan ade kejahatan jugak..mungkin yang kita tak nampak/sedar..atau kita sedar..dan dalam diri orang yang jahat..dalam kejahatan dia tu ..pasti ade kebaikan walau sikit,,so ..kalo orang yang jahat tu pun sedar akan kesilapan dia..kita patut terima..bukan kita cerita keburukan orang tu kat orang lain.bersyukur yang dia dah sedar..haih. kita tak perfect..so..jadi lah diri sendiri..yang tak perfect..tapi berusaha untuk jadi yang terbaik..accept kekurangan orang n ...tak semestinya kita ni sentiasa betul..so..bertolak ansur laa..n be forgiving.."
ayat ni penuh dgn makna. hahahah aku paham sbenarnye. saje je. aku rasa takde menda yg leh aku huraikan lg kat ayat2 ni. sbb suma nye die dah kluar kan.

so kat sini ape yg leh aku bgtau adalah, aku pernah buat silap kat semua org dan aku pun mintak maaf la klau aku terlalu marah sampai takleh nak accept at first. but now i'll try to be a man like what N says "so..bertolak ansur laa..n be forgiving..".
thanks N for ur post. sy tau sy tak berhak amik jer post org then paste-kan kat sini. tp niat sy utk berkongsi ape yg sy rase betul dr post awk. tp tolong la bgtau sy kalau awak rasa tak senang dgn post ni, sy leh delete nanti. ok? thanks..

peringatan lg skali, post ini tidak ade kena mengena ngan sesape pun. just aku yg terasa dan ingin berkongsi kat semua org. igt tuh, takde kene mengena ngan sesapa pun.

- N (kena tukar gak nama die) :(
- Miss C
- "words from N"
- Post about me and Miss C

*post credited to N


azhan(trying to "bertolak ansur n be forgiving")

13th may = Mother's Day

haih~~~
aku ni jenis klau pelupa gila2 pelupa habis.so i hope this time i wont forget this important day again.last time my mom's birthday,i forgot and my dad called me and said "han,kau tak wish mak kau happy birthday ker?".aduih..... time tu mmg aku dah takleh nak duduk diam dah.aku terus call hp mak aku tp die tak angkat lgsg. gila dekat sepuluh kali aku call mak aku tp die tak angkat gak. aku time tu ngan member aku kat hall bawah terus call bapak aku. aku ckp la kat bapak aku yg aku nak ckp kat mak aku,tp mak aku taknak gak. terus aku menangis time tu. bapak aku terus bgtau mak aku yg aku nangis. (time tu aku mmg nangis gila babi la sbb mak taknak layan kita.so mmg aku sedih gila babi la). pastuh bapak aku kate, "han tak yah la nangis.mak kau tu nanti ok la esok lusa.nanti papa bgtau kau wish birthday kat die". aku time tu mmg takleh nak kluar suara dah. aku jwb gak la "hah~~~" 3x.... macam jawab ye tp takleh nak kluar suara la sbb nangis gila babi. tp lepas tuh mak aku terus call aku dan ckp la " han jgn nangis la, mama pun sorry sbb mama tak nak jawab call han td. han jgn nangis lagi la. mama ok dah. han pegi belaja sebab nanti nak exam kan? jd jgn igt benda ni lg la. mama ok dah. han jgn nangis tau?". aku mmg time tu lagi gila babi nyer nangis la. haih~~~

mama, kau mmg diantara org yg paling penting dlm hidup aku. aku minta maaf seandainya aku selalu buat kau tersinggung atau terasa akan perbuatan aku selama ini. aku berjanji, aku akan cuba tidak menghampa kan impianmu. namun maafkan aku jika aku tidak memenuhi impianmu nanti. aku tahu aku memang tidak dapat mencapai segalanya untukmu. tapi percaya la aku tidak pernah melupakanmu dan segala yang telah kau lakukan untuk aku.

kat bwh nanti, lirik lagu yg aku buat khas utk mak aku. lagu ni leh gak buat utk org yg tersayang. so gunekan lah se-elok2 nya.


FOR YOU

I'LL BE THE BABY, I'LL BE THE MAN.
THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE FROM START UNTIL THE END.
I CANT BELIEVE THAT I COULDN'T SAY.
YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT I CARE.

ITS YOU, WHO I LOVE.
YOU ALWAYS THERE EVEN TIMES GOT ROUGH.
CAUSE ITS YOU, WHO I CARE.
I HOPE YOU'LL BE MY SIDE AND YOU'LL STAY.

chorus
I LOVE YOU.
I PROMISE I'LL BE THE MAN YOU WANT ME TO.
I LOVE YOU.
I'LL TRY MY BEST TO GIVE EVERYTHING.
FOR YOU ~~~

*p/s
aku sbenarnye nak bwk lagu ni time dinner SCC hari tu.tp tak jd lak.ntah taktau asal.
so skang ni aku bg lirik jer la. tp bgtau siap2, aku ni mmg tak pandai buat lagu pun. just berangan nak hasilkan lagu sendiri jer :D

(ayat tambahan)
aku sbenarnye mmg susah nak jadi baik kat org lain. maksud aku, aku tak pandai nak amik hati org. jd maaf kan la aku kalau aku pernah buat salah kat sesapa termasuk la mak aku.

mama, sorry~~~

azhan(yg susah nak paham isi hati org lain)

is it about me?

i'm sad if its me u're talking about.
from what i've said here,i'm not blaming you.i'm talking about what i've done to you and to all people who i know.and it shows here that i'm the wrong one, not you.
i dont say that i'm right coz i can accept people's advice or u're wrong
bcoz of all these.its me who caused all these and i never blame you for what had happened.
you have to understand that i dont blame you for all these.

i'm not saying that u haven't reach the asam garam kehidupan yet. that one is for me, not you. if u really think that what i've said here is to blame you, u are wrong. i'm here with my words are to make u understand that i'm not asking for happy ending, i just ask for a good relationship (friendship) for u and me if its the last thing that we can go for. i believe both of us dont know what's in our mind to each other now. this is why i'm asking you to face me and talk about all these. yes i admit that i'm not clear what's happening now and as u said, i have to ask "the spotlight" from you.

i'm ready to fight for future if all these are going right. but what i can see now all went wrong already and i'm the one who caused these. so give me another chance to change the wrong to the right so both of us can fight for the future again.

i dont ask much,i just want u to know that these all went wrong already and i know u're mad right now.but please, we have to meet and talk about these so all will go as good later.just give me a call when u're ready for that.

*p/s
i'm sorry if it was not me who u're talking about in ur last post. but we still have to settle this problem so we dont have to face the misery again and again. please....

thanks miss ~~~ (updated one)

terima kasih byk2 kat sesapa yg bace blog aku ni.aku terharu dgn berterima kasih kat sesapa yg rase aku patut di nasihati sebegini.ini adalah perbualan (chatting kat YM) antara aku ngan satu bekas lecturer aku kat CADP skang ni.aku takleh nak mentionkan nama die nanti kena saman lak.kekekek main2 jer miss. :D

miss C: read ur blog
miss C: boleh comment?
azhanrosli: hahahah sorry miss kalau sy ni terlampau la plak..dipersilakan... :D
BUZZ!!!
azhanrosli: miss dipersilankan..
azhanrosli: *sila
miss C: give 15min
azhanrosli: hmm miss,sy sbenarnye nak g mkn,u just paste what ever u want dlm msg u nanti.lepas sy blk dr mkn sy bls msg miss k.sorry miss dah nak kluar dah ni sbenarnye.tp miss kena bg comment gak tau.thanks miss.. :D
(time ni aku nak g mkn ngan housemate aku.heheh sorry miss terpaksa tinggalkan miss lak)
miss C: kenaper suka mempersalahkan diri selalu???
miss C: kenaper selalu sgt merendahkan diri
miss C: u should at least tulis something happy happening, weird,,,sad mende lain
miss C: selain dari diri sendiri, memperslaahkan diri sendiri, merendahkan diri sendiri
miss C: as what we are told, no body perfect..we tend to make mistakes...so
miss C: once u know, think of a solution n ovrcomes it.....kekadang tu bukan salah kita..dah perangai org tu mcm tuu
miss C: we can't satisfy our friends or people around us
miss C: what u need to do is think forward...
miss C: as what people will say, concentrate on the future, look back when it is meant to point what we have done so that we can concertrate on the present
azhanrosli: terima kasih byk2 miss,sy tau sy mmg selalu pikir benda yg tak betul skit.tp dgn kata2 dr miss ni la sy boleh improvekan diri saya.thanks bebyk miss.sbb sy tau miss diantara org yg agak concern la kat ape yg sy buat samada di internet or in real life situation.thanks bebyk miss.insya'allah sy akan memperbaiki ape yg patut utk kesenangan diri sy dan org lain.terima kasih byk2, sy pun taktau nak ckp ape lg sbb miss mmg concern ttg sy.thanks bebyk miss.klau ade mase nanti kita g minum2 eh,my treat.ok?thanks miss... :)

ini lah ape yg aku ngan bekas lecturer aku kat diploma dulu bersembang.walaupun skejap tp mmg bermakna gila la sbb ade gak lecturer yg concern ttg aku.thanks miss.mungkin betul ape yg miss ckp tu "think of a solution n ovrcomes it".sy dah try dah jalan penyelesaian die tp maybe bukan nasib sy utk settle kan masalah ni. "we can't satisfy our friends or people around us", kadang2 betul gak kita takleh nak puaskan hati org bila kita ngan diorg kan?tp aku akan cuba utk senangkan hati org selagi aku boleh.dan aku perlukan peluang dr korg utk aku perbaiki ape yg patut utk diterima ramai. "as what people will say, concentrate on the future, look back when it is meant to point what we have done so that we can concertrate on the present", ni lak ape yg aku patut buat skang.dan aku berterima kasih la kat miss ni sbb die jer yg selalu "sound" aku ape yg aku patut buat bila aku dlm sesuatu masalah yg aku tak mahu lgsg berlaku.tak lupa gak kat sesapa yg pernah nasihatkan aku,thanks byk2 kat korg suma dan insya'allah sedikit demi sedikit aku akan berubah supaya aku tak lg dibelenggu oleh masalah yg sepatutnye aku leh handle dgn sempurna.terima kasih byk2 kepada miss dan yg lain juga.


*ade update skit dr miss C ngan aku

azhanrosli: hah miss,sy post kan blog baru tau.so refresh la page blog tu.nanti mesti miss marah sy nyer klau miss dah hbs bace nanti.kekekek
miss C: :)) <-- die gelak terbahak2
miss C: lastly...selalu la dekati diri dgn Allah SWT
miss C: doa mintak berikan petunjuk, dll
azhanrosli: heheh baik miss...sy nak update baru lak ni. :D
miss C: kita sebagai seorg muslim, aper aper masalah, kesusahan dan kesenangan, kene mintak pertolongan dari Allah, supaya dpt memberi kita petunjuk....all comes back to basic
miss C: alquran sebagai petunjuk
miss C: :P

jd thanks byk2 kat miss. "kita sebagai seorg muslim, aper aper masalah, kesusahan dan kesenangan, kene mintak pertolongan dari Allah, supaya dpt memberi kita petunjuk....all comes back to basic", aku berharap mendapat petunjuk dan keampunan dr Allah sbb aku tau aku byk buat salah dan dosa.dan aku percaya ini adalah salah satu balasan atas perbuatan yg aku pernah buat dulu.

Wrong time and place ~~~

"wrong time and place".
ini jer la yg aku selalu pikir dlm hidup aku.

"aku ni selalu sgt ke buat benda tak betul dlm hidup aku?"
soklan biasa dlm hidup aku setiap kali masalah dtg tanpa diundang.ade jer benda yg tak betul interrupt mase aku tgh relax melayan sesuatu situation tu.sampaikan kekadang org pikir aku ni bodoh ngan gila.
hahaha aku dah biasa dah ngan tanggapan org camtu.mmg pada mulanya kekadang org nampak baik kita dan akan sanjung kita,dan tak tinggal gak kalau kita start ngan slack kita,sampai mati la org igt kita camtu.aku bukan nak ckp org yg salah anggap ke ape,just lumrah hidup kita takkan mengenali org tu 100% sepenuhnya.

ini menunjukkan betul kate org tua "kau belum cukup makan garam lg nak oi !!!".ayat tu utk aku la, bukan utk korg. aku mengaku aku mmg bodoh ngan sengal skit bila tiba mase nyer.dan aku skali lg mintak maaf kat semua yg aku pernah buat salah sbb aku perlukan petunjuk atau pun org kate 'sound' dr org lain utk aku improvekan diri aku yg tak sebetul nya sempurna lg ni.

aku pernah menjalani hidup yg sebetul2nya kurang dr segi fizikal dan mental suatu ketika dulu dan experience ni dah tolong aku byk sbb dr mula lg aku dah pernah menghadapi masalah yg plg besar dlm hidup aku dulu.dan bila tiba nye masalah2 skang ni alhamdulillah aku tak pernah lg la terpikir nak bunuh diri ke ape.aku percaya korg kalau bace ni mesti kate "ala,igt kau sorg jer ade masalah,ramai lg teruk masalah die dr kau".hahaha itu tak dinafikan la tp igt satu benda dlm hidup kita ni,setiap yg kita hadapi ade kurang dan kelebihan die.cuma kita sedar atau pun tak jer bila ia dtg.(asal macam nak bg ceramah lak ni?) :D

pastu aku mmg nak mengaku la lately ni aku mmg teruk skit.maksud aku dr segi attitude sampai la ke mana2 yg nak ditujui nya.hahahah aku mmg lemah dlm bahasa melayu ni.taktau betul ke tak ape aku tulis ni.kekkekek :D
aku tak pernah salahkan org kalau nak anggap aku ape pun,just klau ape2 pun terjadi ataupun yg akan terjadi nanti,aku taknak hubungan aku ngan sesape akhir dgn kemarahan, bengang, dan kesedihan.biar la ape yg terjadi tu sebagai satu pengajaran baru dlm hidup aku ngan org lain,tp jgn sesekali kita biarkan benda tu akhir tanpa ape2.maksud aku,kalau aku pernah marah atau bengang kat org sbelum ni,aku mintak maaf dan aku harap kita masih leh jd kawan.
aku tau mmg senang aku ckp camni sbb aku yg selalu nya buat masalah kat org lain,tp percaya la yg aku mmg nak semua nye akhir dgn kegembiraan.

dan kepada sesapa yg aku pernah buat silap,aku harap kita leh start blk hubungan sbg kawan supaya tak la nanti kalau Tuhan nak tunjuk kuasa die yg betapa kecik dunia ni bila kita semua berjumpa nanti,tak bertegur lak.itu mmg satu perbuatan yg aku pun klau leh taknak buat kat org lain.tp aku akan start bertegur kalau aku yg nampak korg dulu nanti.ape nak jd nanti itu takdir yg aku harus amik.hahahah gila ayat jiwang ni.kakakakak :D


ok la last paragraph,(gila leh buat novel ni.kekekek )
kepercayaan = trust,
honesty = kejujuran,
ape yg patut aku ckp kat sini?aku mmg mengaku yg aku ni tak pandai nak tunjukkan ape itu 'trust' dan 'honesty' kat org lain.bukan aku taknak tunjuk,cuma aku taktau cara camne dan aku percaya org tak pernah percaya apa yg aku buat.maksudnye org anggap aku hanya pandai bergurau jer all the time,tp percaya la yg aku tak pernah nak berpura2 klau benda tu aku anggap sbg benda yg serius dlm hidup aku.mungkin skang ni susah nak nampak sgt.tp insya'allah kalau satu hari nanti org sedar ape yg aku buat ni.bukan nak tunjuk yg aku ni betul.tp harap korg paham ape yg aku buat ni hanya lah utk korg tau yg aku bukannye kaki penipu atau 'just making things up' aje.aku akan cuba tunjukkan yg aku ni mmg nye serius bila tiba serius nanti.dan aku harap aku takkan marah sesape lg dan aku percaya satu hari nanti aku akan beyond the limit jugak.cuma aku harap aku leh handle that situation nanti.

just want to say sorry for what i've done to you people and
i hope we can start all over again as friends.
dan kepada sesape yg aku pernah buat silap besar dulu,harap2 tegur la aku eh.aku takde hal la nak mintak maaf kat korg.ahahaha....
just aku taknak nanti kalau berjumpe tak bersapa lak.

all the best for this coming final exams and gd luck for future plans.

"Try to see everything positively. Don’t worry about what has gone wrong, focus on things that have worked or gone well."

Azhan (I'm filling in the negative space with positively everything.)

What should i do ???

kepada sesapa, mintak maaf siap2 kalau tak suka ape yg sy akan postkan ni.

*my words

"Today, I have devoted my life to undeniable burden! One by one occurs until I almost collapse!"
- i hope u can be strong enough to handle all these.

"Lalalala...pls don't mess with me now coz you might get hurt, let's just say I've warned you =)"
- i'll do what i have to do to make u forgive me and i rather get hurt even u have warned.

"Wake up too early for no reason, missing a people but does he even care?"
- i hope i'm the one who u r missing to. and i do really care about you.just i dont know how to show it to you.hope u'll understand.

"Conclusion: I have no feelings right now! Tunggu everything is settled then I can tarik nafas lega!"
- i hope that time we're not in a bad relationship.

"life's suck at the moment!"
- i hope it'll turn to better each day.

"I cannot want everything be so perfect in this life but what the hell, if that's gonna be I'll let it be. I'm not GOD who can arrange everything my way. Lalalala...whatever it is, like what Frank Sinatra's says "I Did It....Myyyyy Wayyyyyyyy.." (What the..?)"
- i'm so sorry if i'm the one who makes ur life miserable all the time.what i want is just a chance from you to turn back to what it was.

"Hurmm, we cannot predict what future awaits us. Yes, sometimes it's too unreal and I myself cannot believe what had happened to my life."
- i'm sorry for that.

"It has been bitter lately but suddenly it has became soooooo sweet. What have I done? I'm not sure, but one thing for sure, I'll pray to god to make my life easier especially in the current situation I'm facing now. Hurmph..."
- pray to God and He will show you the right way how to handle your problems.

"Aaaaa, I wanna die...the reason: I'm in love...for real! Hahaha..."
- i hope i'll be the one.

i dont know what to do.i just want u to understand what i'm doing now and hope u'll forgive me with a chance that we can start all over again.

Forgive me ~~~